Sometimes

Sometimes I look at you and only recognise a tiny part of you.

Sometimes I look at you and all I see is a stranger.

Sometimes I talk to you and I feel like I'm speaking Croatian.

Sometimes you look at me and all you can see is a woman you don't know, sitting in your room, drinking your alcohol and gibbering at you in a language you don't understand.

Sometimes I turn to you only to find you are suddenly gone and in your place is an apparition.

Sometimes I can't find you no matter how hard I look.

Sometimes I reach for you and all I feel is the warmth where you just were.

Sometimes I long for you with no absolute certainty that you even exist.

Sometimes I reach for you and all I feel is air.