I'm frustrated and tired of worrying about money, fretting all the time about how we will manage. Everything I spend even a tiny bit of money outside of the business I feel so guilty it makes me feel sick. On Saturday we spent £60 on paint and masking tape and now it's like a little worry worn with teeth, eating me from the inside out.  My back hurts because my chairs so old and I need a new one but to get that I need more customers but I'm a crappy businesswoman, so I can't/don't do the things I need to do, like PR.  And to top it all I'm hungry but I'm on day 5 of the 7 day juice detox so I'm not spoiling it now.  

Things I know to be true - List number five

1. A little bit of regular physical exercise goes a long way towards long -term emotional well being.

2. The need for a fire is a primal instinct in all of us and is why men like barbecues and garden centres sell so many Chimneas. 

3. If people were once worth knowing, they are always worth knowing, and time really does make a difference to how everyone feels.

4. Even in the Summer insomnia is crappy.

5. People that play Roller derby are both physically brave, and often using it as a way to fight emotional demons. 

6. Adrenaline sports and trying to conceive do not sit well together - it's like trying to get pregnant whilst running away from a Sabre Tooth Tiger.

7. Finding a past time that completely overwhelms you is a vital part of being alive and if you don't have it you need to find it. 

8. Emotional drama is insidious, and is never, ever part of a successful relationship.

9. You only get what you want through sheer hard work so if you haven't got what you want yet you need to work harder for it. 

10. Scented plants in your garden are a simple but indescribable pleasure and investing in Jasmine is a surprisingly easy step towards being inwardly peaceful.