Thursday, August 03, 2006

On standing by your own actions in body, mind and name.

Dear anonymous person,

I see your point, I do. You're right. I do feel guilty. I feel ashamed of myself and angry. I do not think I did a big or clever thing. I am not protesting 'too much', I am taking my punishment which includes the loss of my car and I have learned my lesson. The people I hit were not hurt, there were no 'crying children' and they had insurance which is covering their car. I was driving at 10mph at the top of my road, so very close to the allowable limit that the poplice wanted me to take a blood test as it might let me off. I refused that test. I owned up to drinking the minute I got out of the car and I am proud of that. The police said that the court was as lenient as they had ever seen, as much as they could be. I was not some 10 times over the limit drunk, caring nothing and driving at 80mph, I was driving away from a horrible arguement because I had nowhere else to go. These are my reasons, but they are not excuses. I know what I did was wrong and stupid and dangerous.

I will not do it again.


Now about you.

You are hiding under the tag of anonymous, making judgements about people without revealing your own hand. If you are someone I know then I wish I didn't; my true friends and my family have told me how they feel and it's not all good, I would not wish for a friend who could not say to my face what you have said here.

If you are someone I do not know, then who are you to judge? Have you never done wrong? Never made a mistake? Come and walk a mile in my shoes, I welcome you.

It's safe there in anonymous bliss, isn't it? Easy to sit and judge, hiding behind the letters, no-one to look you in the face.

But if I were you, sitting there, typing unkind words to a person whilst keeping my identity secret, I would be feeling distinctly uncomfortable about myself. I have not hidden from what I did. You however appear to hide constantly.

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