Starting from the beginning

I'm in the crappiest place. I've lost the baby, my knee is still fucked and I've put on about two stone because of not skating and the pregnancy. 

I don't know what to do. I'm so sad. 

It's sunny outside but I just feel paralysed with deciding how to move forward. I haven't gone to work for two days. I need to pull myself together and sort myself out but I don't know how. 

Things to be happy about:

1/ I've got two lovely children already

2/ It's sunny. 

3/ We are having a multi-fuel Eco stove fitted. 

4/ I am going on holiday in August.

5/ We can try again for another baby.

6/ I finally have a Physio appointment booked on Monday. 

PISS.