Spoken word.

I'm writing poetry and it's shit.  Or rather what I'm actually writing is spoken word poetry, which is a different thing, and I'm trying to practice it, but I don't want to learn it because I feel like it's not very good. So I've got to read it which is rubbish because spoken word is best when you know it, and it's coming from inside you and it's your heart and everyone is basically just listening to the beat of you living, breathing, being alive.

Reading is like - some duffer poem on Radio 4.

What's the point in learning it if it's rubbish?  But you need to practice.  So you're reading it and you know it's shit and....you should have memorised it but you can't because you don't think it's very good, etc, ad infinitum.....